hey hey .. sorry i never update my blog for the pass few days ...

wanted to update my blog yesterday ... but my aunt used my REAL mother laptop .. so i cannot use ... my laptop no connection ... SAD !!!! >< so ... now i have to rush ... on what happen the last few days .. and today ...

Wednesday ( 2 June )

Today i felt very happy inside ... but i felt very emo when i look at people .. i had NO idea why ... Maybe it was what happen on Tuesday .. which was yesterday ... NIGHT ... hmm ... it was really a shock that i have never notice .. and i was tooo stupid ... i was thinking .. " why didn't i did that in the first place ?? instead of crying my heart out " hmm ... Tuesday night ... i think i know why ... is it because of "that person" ..? or was i wrong ?? maybe yes ... maybe no ...

yang " that person " ialah lelaki yang tinggal di kedah ... kalau korang tahu .. o.o dia sms aku ... terperanjat aku ... aiyaaa !!! sangat rindu dia ... dia rindu aku pulak ... dia jangan tipu sudah .... bukan apa .. kita dua bersama ... hahaha .. xDDD

sorry if i type that in Malay ..... want to know .. i try to say it to you face to face ... or else don't force ... cause it isn't important .. okiie ? good .. don't ask .. rawrr !! :P

alamak ... sangat rindu dia sia ... -.- tak blh tahan ...!!!! AHHHHH !!!!!! LOL !!

Thursday ( 3 June )

i came back home from school around 4.30pm .... my REAL mother asked me if we want to come over her place .. and i was like .. " sure, why not " ... so she asked me to inform my dad .. and we were like ..... arguing ....... ABOUT to argue ... haizzz ... at times i don't understand why we have to fight over small stuff ... just because i want to go over my REAL mother place ... is it wrong for me to go there ?

I don't mind if he wants to send me over ... i don't mind if he want me to go by myself when he is not free .. but .... he was like .. nagging at me all of a sudden ... as if i would do something bad ... like run away from home .. or so ...

i don't understand what is going on around here ... why am i put in between and being blamed and wrong ..? is it wrong for me to say i want to go over my mom place .....???!!! ( i know i am repeating it ... )

YES, i have school the next day ... i know he have work in the morning the next day tooo ... he can just let me go myself ...

i can't end up becoming BLURR sotong when i grow up and get a job ... i mean, there is a time when ... a parents need to let their child learn how to go a place by themselves ... am i wrong ??
Yes, i know they are worried ... for the children ... but don't they ever think it would be more difficult for them to understand when they get older ?

i feel like i would end up becoming a shy shy ... scary cat girl .... never mind that ... i understand my dad's feeling ... i kept thinking that .. " he doesn't let me go to my mother house .." when he say something .. he sound like it ... maybe he did not noticed it ...
TOTALLY !! i am not angry that my dad say those things to me ... i won't get hurt about it ... cause ... i myself had NO idea what to say and do ... when i talk back .. he say i am becoming rude .... to him ... never mind ... i don't wanna go further on this things .... its gonna be more annoying and irritating if i continue on ...

( NOTE : I am not saying my dad is evil ... i just don't get what am i to them ... )

Friday ( 4 June )

i am now in my REAL mother house .. and i am playing Wii ... xDD !!! so funnn !!! :D can't use my laptop ... dammit .. >< no Internet .... sad !! ): The Internet is spoil ... it says .. Limited or no connectivity ... lol -.- grr .. nevermind ...

TODAY ( 5 June )

FINALLY CAN USE MY REAL MOTHER LAPTOP !!! (: now updating my blog .... and waiting for SOMEONE to answer my question that i wrote in facebook ( Gmail account ) .... hahahaha (:

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any on who does not GET it at all .. do ask me IN PERSON ... i would only say stuff that is important ... those that are not important .. i won't reply back .. :P

my fake ( sister/brother ) i will tell ...
my real ( sister/brother/cousin ) i will tell ...
( Friends/besty ) i won't tell ... only trust worthy ...
THE REST DEPENDS ON MY MOOD ....!!! (:

xoxo,
its just me !! :P