hey hey ...!
what sup !
anyways .. not really in a good mood for this month .. i had no idea how long has it been this way already ... why ?? well .. i am hurt ~ of what ? hmm ... i guess i can say .. someone i love already love another girl .. yeahh .. its jealousy ~ oh well .. happiness is what a everyone need .. right ..? i feel so lost .. i had no idea what to do to myself .. just reading his msg that was written on my phone .. i was so lost .. not to mention i almost bleed myself to death ... no .. i did not cut myself ...

its more like .. without him .. i will die .. like ohh no ..? i am crying bleeding i guess .. maybe some of my friends know .. some don't .. but i think they would know who am i referring to ... " stalker " ... that guy ... that i am so obsessed with .. and now lost in my own world ..

what am i thinking ? i am thinking of jumping down dead . but .. i must move on ..? right ?? try to forget him .. can't at all .. rawrrr ! i am so ... pissed .. this is the longest time i had ever missed an ex boyfriend .. ! i guess he already stead with her .. seeing what he wrote on fb .. i guess .. <.< yeahh .. so what ? i'm jealous .. i think this is my first time i had ever been jealous of a girl being with my ex ..?

not to mention .. i was so pissed i went scolding my friend ... lol ... i was so evil at that moment ... T_T what have i done wrong .... well ... people will end up saying this to me ...

1. ignore that jerk . there are better other guys ..

2. just put him a side .. you can always get another guy .

3. don' care that guy anymore la .

random words just got out of my mouth .. and head .. yeah ... I'm just killing myself already ... things are getting more difficult for me .. i can't do anything else to just see him happy .. yeahh ... he is in a different school .. but what can i say much ..?? i just need him .. bigggg time !!! what to do .. i don't even feel like telling my friends .. nor family members .. or school counsellor ... its going to become more difficult -.- and tooo much lecturing ... grrrrrr !!! i don't like being lectured ... so irritating x.x

yeahh .. i didn't tell any of my friends about this ... but i only told 1 .. telling her that he is just inlove with another girl ..

lost his number .. and i had no idea what to do and say ... feel like onlining the game that we always play ... but ........ yeahh .. i just tooo scared to talk to him ..

i'm an idiot -.- how can i not forget about him ...???? why am i so obssessed to him !!! GOD HELP ME !!!!! i'm in the world that is so dark !

his just the best among any other guy that ever came into my life ... yeahh . admitted it .... admitted that i miss him ... guess that lucky girl is really lucky ..

btw ... SORRY NEVER UPDATE !!! I WAS LOST IN MY WORLD FOR VERY LONG !! RAWRRR !!! T_T